I just got off the phone with MY coach feeling grounded and connected again to my core – to who I REALLY am. At the beginning of the call I was feeling antsy, stressed, pressured. I’ve been in one of my “I can’t get everything done, I don’t have enough time, I’m so behind, I need to work harder” modes. My coach and I figured out that my gremlins have been triggered big time (due to something going on at home) and I hadn’t even realized that they had taken over my head, once again!
When I feel unsafe or uncertain in my world, my gremlins push me right into “get busy and take control of all the little stuff” gear. It’s a form of magical thinking – “if I control this little stuff, I will be safe.” The problem is, while I obsess about my task list, I lose my capacity for spontaneity, laughter or joy.
So, I really looked at what’s going on – why I am feeling unsafe and uncertain. I took the time to address those fears – ME – not my gremlins trying to address the fear with unthinking control freakiness. For the moment, my head is clear. I feel calm, loose and able to flow.